It's A Great Life To Live

wow...really intermittent one my blog aa... last update, 12 apr.. hmm.. forecast for next update = 30th May lah... hehehe...

well, a lot of things happen during since the last time i wrote.. i dont even know where to start.. the biggest thing ever happened was ayah's bypass operation lah.. i think it was a big deal to me (or my family) coz as far as i can remember, no one in the family (immediate) had undergone an operation this big.. maybe when my sis's c-section for my twin nephews kot.. but i wasn't there, so it didn't really affect me much - all i knew was that she delivered her babies, that's all..

the different thing with ayah's operation, i was sort of involved from the beginning.. well, not really.. sort of.. i was there when he went for check up and when he made an appointment for angiogramme.. and then, went for angiogramme (on April 20th).. we were expecting a one-day admission to the hospital only because after the procedure, the patient can't do anything for one day only.. one day only.. so, we didn't prepare for anything more than that.. material-wise or mental-wise (or was it just me?..)so after the procedure we were visited by the doctor who performed the procedure (who by the way was ayah's ex-student..).. so, he informed us that they have to perform bypass operation on ayah, if possible he didn't want to let ayah went home before the surgery was done.. no angioplasty or stenting (less invasive procedure, with tube and all).. open heart surgery.. it was a very emotional moment after the doctor left, for ayah and us.. but, kena la kontrol hensem kan...

and then my brother and sister went back home to get all the necessities needed to stay at the hospital, while my parents stay at the hospital.. starting from that evening, we (adik-beradik) started to berkampung kat situ.. not really berkampung, we took turns to go to accompany my parents whenever possible.. i went everyday while ayah's stay at the hospital after work.. my duty? laundry.. ;) the least i can do.. because it's a hassle to have loads of clothes kept with you during your stay in the ward.. apart from storage issue, you might have to move beds/rooms depending on your progress/conditions.. so, i came to the hospital daily to take laundry home..

so, ayah's operation's date was confirmed on friday (April 22nd).. i was on EL.. that was another story.. which i'll write later.. it was another emotional moment for us.. now, it was the surgeon who came and briefed us on the procedure that ayah would undergo.. including, the process, what would happen to ayah and the risks during and after the surgery..sometimes, i think it's better for the surgeon not to tell all those to ayah.. coz, my ayah is a very sentimental man.. unlike my mak (at least she doesn't show it on the surface).. but i know, it's the responsibility of the surgeon to do that.. so, after ayah signed the document, it was yet another quiet moment.. he cried quietly.. we all did.. but of course, everyone were very discreet about it.. i hid behind my tinted glasses.. hehe..after that, my sisters and i went to look for things needed in the ICU the next day..

come saturday, he went into the operation theatre without me seeing him first.. coz... erm.. i .. overslept.. so, i was just in time to talk to him on the phone right before he went into the operation theatre.. it was about 7.20 a.m or 7.30 a.m.. isk.. so, he got out to ICU at about 12.15 p.m. and we were allowed to see him in pairs.. the doctors had warned that ayah will be drugged for at least 24 hours after surgery, so don't make him talk...so, we just got in the ward and stood by him.. the visiting hours for ICU is from 12.30 pm- 1.30pm and 6pm - 8pm.. so, each of us spent a couple of minutes or so..

then, he got out to normal wards on sunday late afternoon.. and since then, till he was discharged on saturday i was a permanent after-hour visitor.. coz i had so much to do at the office, i had to leave at 7pm earliest... so i stayed with my parents till 9 to 9.30pm or so everyday... wanna know how? contact me, and i'll tell you how.. :D

for me it was a challenging experience... both mentally and physically.. physically: i start very early everyday.. compared to before, i now wake up around 6 am.. to dry clothes for my parents (as mentioned, i took charge of the laundry).. to prepare to work, so that i arrive early - so that i can leave early (but still i left for the hospital 7pm)... mentally: to be there by your parents and appear that you are strong.. coz they need you to be strong.. especially during emergency situation (happened once).. very hard one.. exceptionally tough if you're the sentimental one.. :D ... to be prepared to care for the sick... very tough and demanding.. but i will survive, insyaAllah..

i'll keep praying for ayah's health..